Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Chin Up!

Yeah, that seems to be what I have to tell myself to get through this day. To not break down in tears at every baby commercial or every pregnant person who crosses my path. Hubby is out of town for work so it is just me and the dogs. I guess we have been together for so long for him to know that I am feeling down because he keeps calling to ask "are you ok?" I know me means well, but I am not suicidal or anything, just really bummed out and tired of everything being so difficult. Having children is something that humans have been doing since Adam and Eve I just hate that this is such a struggle.

One of my closest cousins just had her second little one and I cannot find the strength to call and congratulate her. I guess I will have to just send a card, I can do that without crying I think. Just really trying to keep positive and yep - chin up! I think that came from Mary Poppins. But I keep saying that over and over hoping it will sink in.


  1. Thanks for your sweet comment on my blog. I am sorry you are going through this, I wish no one had to. An infertility diagnosis is devastating, so don't feel like you should be able to "chin up" immediately. You need time to grieve and process and even after you've done that, we all still have good days and bad days. The good will get through this and you have a great DH by your side to help you through. I'm sorry you're in this journey, but I hope the road to becoming a mother is a short one for you. It sounds as if your RE has some good plans in the works for you and you are still young, so time is on your side. ((HUGS))

  2. It's ok to feel the way you feel. This is all very hard.


  3. From your previous post...yes sweetie, HSG is painful....whatever is that liquid that is squished through, you can feel it tracing the contours of your inside...

    You know, I could write some really motivational thoughts here, but nothing fruitful emerges from my wrung up mind.

    I read this on Another Dreamer's blog - "If you are going through hell, keep going."

  4. Thanks you guys. I was feeling so guilty because I was so frustrated and upset.

    WiseGuy - I love that quote. Will definitely use that one in the future.